Monday, March 4, 2013

I Know Who Gave Me HIV! The Isaac Burks Story ( Isaac Don Burks )

Isaac Burks aka Isaac Don Burks Pictured Above

I met Stephawn, (Real Name: Isaac Burks - Isaac Don Burks), when I was 19 years old. I had just moved to Atlanta from North Carolina to attend Clark Atlanta University. At age 19, I was still trying to figure out my sexual orientation. I was still a virgin, because I was raised with traditional values, and I was still trying to figure out my sexual identity. I was attracted to females, but I was also attracted to men. In fact, my attraction to men was stronger. I desperately tried to fight my attraction to the same sex, because I knew if I gave in that would mean a lifetime as an outcast in my family.

You see, my father was a pastor and my mother was a physician. I came from a very stable background, and my parents were heavily into the church. They controlled everything in my life. They financed my education, sent me money every month, and paid virtually every bill that I had. They wanted to see me succeed in life, and I didn't want to disappoint them.

When I moved to Atlanta I met other gay men who were more comfortable with their sexual orientation. I pulled strength from these men, and bonded with them almost immediately. They taught me that it was ok to be gay, and that life was too short to live my life for others. Over the next few months my circle started to consist of nothing but gay men. I felt comfortable. I felt that I could express myself without judgement, and.... for the first time ever I felt accepted. As time passed by, I started coming out of the closet a little more each day. At first, I would never attend a gay club because of fear of being outed. My friends eventually talked me into attending a gay club for the first time. I was nervous! You see, I had a sister who attended Spelman College and four other male cousins who attended Clark. The last thing I needed was my family to find out my sexual orientation. That would mean the possibility of my parents cutting me completely off, and they were the ones paying for my tuition, books, and college expenses.

I eventually put my fears aside after a night of drinking with my friends. We loaded up into my friends Ford Explorer and headed over to a club called Traxx. Apparently, this was the gay club that everyone in Atlanta attended on Saturday. I remember walking into a place that resembled a poorly decorated high school gym. It was huge! Hip-Hop music blasted thru the speakers and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves without a care in the world. There had to be over 1,000 people in the place, and they were dancing the night away.

Because we were underage, we couldn't drink. Apparently, everyone over 21 received a special wrist band to indicate their age, and no one in my party had one. After awhile of standing around we were starting to become over it. Clubs aren't as fun when you are sober, and the liquor we had drank earlier in our dorms was starting to wear off. While standing on the side I noticed a guy staring at me and smiling. He was about 6'2, 180 pounds, athletic build, short hair, brown complexion, and was very attractive.  Every time I would catch him looking in my direction I would look the other way. This entire gay lifestyle was still new to me, so I didn't know what to take his stares for. Eventually he worked up the nerve to come over to me and strike up a conversation. He told me that I looked familiar, and asked me where I was from. I told him that I was from Charlotte North Carolina, and that I couldn't possibly look familiar. I had never been to a gay club before, and every one of my friends were college freshmen from different cities around the country. He asked me why I wasn't drinking, and I told him we couldn't buy drinks because we were all under 21. He offered to buy us a round of drinks at his expense. I jumped at the offer, because we wanted to enjoy ourselves that night. After all, no one comes to a club to have a bad time.

He returned minutes later with three drinks. The drinks he ordered for us were Long Island Iced Teas. I remember taking a sip and almost spitting the drink out. It was very strong. Rather than be rude and waste his money, I drank it slowly. Stephawn then asked why I was babysitting my drink. I asked what he meant by that, because I had never heard the phrase used before. He told me to hurry up and finish my drink, because he was going to order us another round. By the time the second round came, I was feeling nice. My friends who were initially being wallflowers started to dance. We continued to talk, and he kept buying me drinks.

After the third round I was almost drunk, and so were my friends. Every time he ordered me a drink, he also ordered my friends drinks too. After awhile my friends wanted to leave, and I told him that I would catch up with him later. He asked me to stay a little longer, and promised to take me home. I ditched my friends, and for the rest of the night it was just me and him.

We ended up leaving the club an hour later. While taking me home he told me he needed to stop by his house real quick to grab some gas money since his car was on E. He made a joke about spending more money on drinks than he had plan to that night. So he needed to grab some more cash. We pulled into an apartment complex in the Lindbergh area of buckhead. He told me to come up to his Apartment with him so I did.

As soon as the door to his apartment closed he started passionately kissing me. We eventually ended up in his bedroom where we kissed for hours it seemed. He started unbuckling my my pants, and I stopped him. I confessed that I was still a virgin and didn't have a clue what I was doing.

He told me to relax, and that everything was cool. He said that everyone started off as a virgin at some point in there life, and that he could teach me how to have sex. He made me turn over on my stomach and took my shoes off. Then he took my pants off. I was tense and nervous. I didn't know what to expect, but he was so attractive I wanted every ounce of this man. The first thing he did was start eating my ass and I moaned passionately as he gently ate my ass for hours it seemed. Next he started sucking my d***k from the back while I was laying on my stomach. It felt amazing. I wanted to please him too, but he told me to chill and go with the flow. Then he started grinding on my ass and rubbing his d***k on my ass crack. He grabbed some lotion that was strategically placed on his nightstand. He rubbed the lotion in my ass crack, and then put some on his index finger. He slowly put his finger inside of my ass. I moaned in ecstasy, because he was stroking my d***k while he was massaging my prostate with his finger. After awhile of fingering me, he tried to put his d***k in my ass without a condom. I stopped him immediately! I asked if he had a condom, and he said yea why? I said because I didn't come to Atlanta to catch anything and safe sex was mandatory with me. He ran some line about being recently tested the week before, and I said that's cool but we just met. If we were going to have a casual encounter it needed to be a safe casual encounter. He jumped up and grabbed a magnum out of his dresser. I watched him put the condom on, and then I buried my face into the pillow. It was painful at first. I didn't understand how men could possibly enjoy what felt like having your insides ripped out. I had to stop him several times, because I could not take the pain. After about 20 minutes he was starting to get impatient. I couldn't take the d***k, and he seemed to be over waiting for me to get used to the pain. I didn't want to disappoint him, and I didn't want my first sexual encounter to be horrible with my partner not being satisfied. Plus I wanted to see him again. I decided to "man up" and squirted some more lube on my ass. I laid on my stomach, and put my face back into the pillow. He slowly inserted his d***k inside of my ass, and this time it didn't hurt as much. He started to increase his stroke, and I had no problem taking it. It wasn't entirely pain free, but it wasn't unbearable either. He was grabbing my waist, and I attempted to throw my ass back like I had seen in the porno movies. Whatever I was doing, he was enjoying it because he was moaning in ecstasy. After 10 minutes of f***king me doggy style he screamed he was going to cum. As he came I felt a warm liquid rush inside of my ass. I jumped up and looked back and saw his d***k without a condom on it! I screamed what happened to the condom? He grabbed around the bed and showed me the condom. There was no cum in it, and it was by the foot of the bed. I ran to the bathroom, because it felt like I had to s***t. When I used the bathroom, his cum rushed out of my ass. It was allot. I kept thinking to myself that this motherf***ker took the condom off while f***king me. That was the only explanation for cum being in my ass, because I watched him put the condom on.

I came out of the bathroom with an angry look on my face. I screamed "I just used the bathroom and your cum came out of my ass!" I asked him point blank... Did you take the f***king condom off? He had this stupid bewildered look on his face and said no. He said that it must have broke. I didn't believe him for a second, and I searched around for the condom. I found the used condom on the bed, and started examining it. The condom wasn't broke at all! I rolled it out, and there was nothing wrong with it. I screamed what the f***k did you do, because this condom isn't broken. He told me that I was tripping, and I ran to the bathroom with the condom and put it up to the faucet. I filled the condom with water and it didn't leak at all! When I did that, he told me to get the f***k out of his house. I told him that I wasn't going anywhere until he told me the truth! He pushed me with all of his force and I flew into a wall. He told me that if I didn't get the fuck out of his house he was going to beat the shit out of me. I felt betrayed, I was scared for my life, and I was hurt. I had heard about Atlanta being one of the cities with the highest AIDS rates in the country, and I was determined not to be a statistic.

I quickly got my things, and got out of his house. This asshole didn't even offer to take me home, and it was 6am in the morning. As I waited outside of his apartment in the cold, I called a cab service. They arrived about 20 minutes later and took me home. The entire time he was texting my phone and calling me non stop. I didn't answer his calls, because I didn't want to talk to him. I was convinced that he had purposely took the condom off while f***king me. There was no other explanation for his cum being inside of me. I know some guys get off by that, but I was disgusted by it.

The thought of his cum inside me made my stomach turn. As the liquor wore off, I went into a deep depression. The situation kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Was this my fault? How did I not know the condom was off? Why would he take the condom off? Were some of questions that filled my head. When I got back to my dorm, I laid in my bed and stared at the ceiling. Tears started rolling down my face as the situation replayed in my head. I wad mad, hurt, and disgusted at the same time. I said a long prayer. Afterwards, I popped two tylenol pm's and fell alseep.

I didn't tell anyone about my experience. How could I explain that I had sex and my partner purposely took the condom off and came inside of me unprotected? I had just met this man. I didn't even know his real name. When my friends asked me what happened, I said nothing and gave them a look that said "don't ask me anymore questions!". They didn't ask, and I didn't tell. That experience frightened me so bad that I decided to put my sexual desires on hold and focus on my education. That meant pulling back from my "gay friends" too, because I was starting to get a little too reckless and free with my sexuality. I started hanging more with my straight friends. After all, I had to keep my charade up. I had family that attended my school, so I couldn't be seen with a bunch of gay men 24/7.

8 months later while home for Christmas break I had to see my doctor for my yearly checkup. This was something my mother made me do every year since I can remember. My doctor asked me was I sexually active, and I said no. I told him that I had sex once, but that was it. I wasn't sexually active, because I wasn't actively having sex. He told me that he was going to include an HIV test in my regular blood work anyway. A few days later I received a call from his office. It wasn't the doctor, it was one of the office workers. She was obviously new, because I didn't recognize her voice. She told me that I needed to come in, because there was something that the doctor needed to discuss with me. I was confused. I asked her what "something" was, and she said that she couldn't release this information over the phone and that I should come in Today. This was very unusual, because I had never had this happen before and I had been getting a yearly checkup from the same doctor for over 15 years. At first I thought it could be high blood pressure, because that ran in my family. There was also a chance of cancer, because the women in my family had breast cancer and my grandfather passed away from prostate cancer the year before. I borrowed my mothers car, and headed over to the doctor's office. I didn't want to scare her, so I didn't mention what I was borrowing the car for.

I will never forget what happened next. As I arrived to my doctor's office, I was told to have a seat in the waiting room. There was soft music playing that turned out to be Barry Manilow's Daybreak, and it made my stomach turn! I hated that f***king song. I was in no mood to hear a happy go lucky song when I was being called into my doctor's office to discuss my lab results. Before the song could end, the doctor opened the door and escorted me to an exam room. It was cold, there was no window, and the light was very bright. Brighter than usual. I sat on the exam table, as he stood in front of me. He began to look over my charts and lab results. He grabbed my hand, which caught me off guard, and said.. "I'm so sorry to have to tell you this, but your HIV results came back positive." I swear I didn't even hear the word "positive", I just read his lips that seem to go in slow motion.... P O S I T I V E. I quickly shot back, I'm sorry but there must be some mistake! I am not sexually active. I've only had sex once! I haven't even performed oral sex, or had any sexual activity with anyone but one person. Are you serious? I was screaming at him while tears poured from my eyes as if he did something wrong. I fell to the floor, and he held me in his arms as if I was his son. He tried to console me... "With all the new advancements in HIV treatment this isn't a death sentence" he said. I could not stop crying. This has to be a mistake! I....I.....I.... couldn't even finish the sentence because I was so distraught. I cried, and cried. I kept trying to talk while I was crying, because I just couldn't believe what was happening. I choked on my tears. His white lab coat was soaked from my tears.  He tried to give me a little hope by saying that he would order additional tests. That false hope was short lived when all the results came back positive.

I thought about committing suicide when everything came back positive. I could not eat. I could not sleep. I could not focus. I couldn't do anything but cry. My doctor couldn't legally tell my mother that  I was HIV positive, but I was on her insurance so she would find out sooner or later when she saw the co-pays for the HIV meds he prescribed and the increased doctor visits. I tried to get in contact with Stephawn but his number was disconnected.

When I got back to school, I went over to the apartment complex where he lived but I couldn't remember the apartment number. I had no way of reaching this guy. I wanted to kill him, and i was going to. I had a butcher knife and I was going to stab him thru the heart, because I knew this guy had given me HIV, because I didn't have sex with anyone else. As time passed, I became so depressed that I started missing weeks of school. I would sit in my dorm room with the shades closed so it was dark and cry. I kept thinking what is the purpose of getting a degree when I'm going to die soon. I lost 15 pounds from not eating and started to look very frail. I stopped talking to everyone and became a recluse.

My "gay friends" would call daily to check up on me, but I refused to take their calls. Somehow I blamed them. I believed it was their fault that I ended up home with this guy. Why would they just leave me with a stranger? They knew I was drunk! I was looking for someone to blame to ease the pain. That didn't work though, and my life continued to go downhill.

I decided to drop out of school, because I didn't know how to deal with it all. I had no one to turn to. I couldn't tell my friends, and I couldn't tell my parents. All I could do was suffer in silence. Can you imagine telling your mother that you are HIV positive after a one night stand? I couldn't bare to see the pain in her eyes from knowing her son is going to die before her.

Today I read the article about Isaac Burks and saw his picture. This is the same guy who told me his name was Stephawn. This is the guy that gave me HIV! He ruined my life! I finally ended up telling my parents because I could not afford to pay the co-pays for the medication and doctor visits. My mother didn't cry, and told me that she loved me and would be there for me every step of the way. Later on that night as I got up to use the bathroom I heard her crying in her room. Tears immediately started pouring down my face and I ran to the kitchen. I grabbed the nearest knife, and slit my wrists. I wanted to die. I fell out and woke up in the hospital surrounded by my family. I have been in counseling, hiv support groups, and I'm seeing a psychiatrist every week. Accepting the fact that I am HIV positive has been very hard. I still have not been able to return to school, and I have tried to kill myself 3 times since then.

To the sick f***k Isaac Burks, also known as Stephawn who gave me HIV, I hope you rott in hell. Now that I finally know his real name, I will be contacting the authorities and telling them my story. Every day I hope that things will get better, and it doesn't. I ask "Why me?" every day. What did I do to deserve this? I have not been able to date or have any sexual relations with anyone since. I just know the minute I tell them my HIV status they will be out of the door. I feel that I am going to die alone. The last time I tried to commit suicide by swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills I woke up to my mother crying and begging me to stop. But I cant. I have nothing to live for. I am alive, but I am not living.

I cried as I typed this post. I relived it, but felt I had to share my story. After finally coming out to my friends with my story I later found out that there were others that this man has infected with HIV. I also found out that he is wanted in several states for fraud, and identity theft. If you see this man, please call the authorities. If you've had unprotected sex with him and he didn't disclose his status... please get tested and report him immediately to your local police. If he has infected you, don't be scared to come forward. By doing so you could be saving the life of someone's son, daughter, cousin, brother, or sister. I beg you. This man has caused me and others so much pain, sometimes I feel I can't go on. No one deserves this! My life will never be the same.


Update 03/6/2013: The validity of the news article that compelled me to share my story has come into question. But make no mistake about it, my story is 100% real. If you read my story then you will already know that I was compelled to share my story AFTER seeing that article. My story has not changed. I made this clear from the very beginning. If it had not been for that article, I probably would have never shared my story, because I did not know his full name. I didn't even know his real name. I was initially told his name was Stephawn. No last name given. That article, along with several other articles indicating that he was wanted for Identity Theft and Fraud is how I was able to identify the man who gave me HIV.

That article, whether real or fake, has absolutely nothing to do with my story. I know the man pictured in that article is the man I met in Atlanta several years ago at Club Traxx, and the man who gave me HIV. I have no doubt in my mind, whether his name is Isaac, Stephawn, Charles, Billy, or whatever name this man is going by nowadays... the person pictured above is the person who gave me HIV. If that story is such a hoax, then why hasn't he come forth with HIV Test Results? Every major pharmacy in the United States sells an at-home HIV test that delivers results in 20 minutes and costs less than $50 dollars. If someone was lying on me, I would jump on camera and broadcast my test as I was taking it. Instead, he jumped on facebook along with his cronies to issue a denial. Not once did he say he was HIV negative. The fact remains that he is having unprotected sex with people and not telling them his status. Whether there are charges pending against him or not, this man is still walking around having unprotected sex and not disclosing his status.

Whatever you believe, if you decide to have sex with this man then please use a condom. That's what you should take from this story. Use a condom with everyone you have sex with, and make sure your partner does not pull it off during the middle of sex without your knowledge. The hurtful negative comments blaming me and calling me a slut are exactly why I didn't want to share my story. This incident happened years ago, and I have sat in silence..... too embarrassed to share my story. I didn't want to be judged, and there are others who feel the same way. When you share your story you make yourself vulnerable to critics and doubters. After reading that article I felt that I had to share my story. I hope that by sharing my experience I can save someone's life. To the people defending this guy when you know what he is doing, you will have to answer to god. How can you sleep at night? That could be your brother, sister, cousin, friend, or family member that he infects next! Sitting in silence and turning a blind eye while this man destroys lives leaves blood on your hands! May god have mercy on your soul.

Click Here - To View His Extensive Criminal History for Fraud, Forgery, Identity Theft, Financial Identity Theft, and Drugs. He's even been to prison before, and he currently has outstanding warrants in several states.

119 comments:

  1. www.qpid.me
    they allow you to exchange medically verified std/hiv statuses! may help to prevent some of this from going on...but always wrap it up!

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    1. Baby live !!!! I am here for u praying for u

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    1. LOL were U there!!! Cross dresser? Sadly mistaken. But on a better note were discussing my brother you fool.... Have a good life!

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    1. WTF??? ARE YOU SERIOUS CARMEN??? WHO ARE YOU? YOU ARE DISGUSTING... ARGHHH I SERIOUSLY WISH U WERE HERE SO I COULD TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT YOUR FACE AND SPIT ON IT.. THATS HOW DISGUSTED I AM BY YOUR COMMENT.

      Joshua... IT GETS BETTER. it really does, Hiv is a terrible disease yes.. but you won't die if you take care of yourself. and also if you just LIVE YOUR LIFE you will be happy and thats the best medicine you could ever get. Also if someone you like walk away just because you have Hiv Believe me. He doesn't deserve you. I wish you all the best luck. Take care of yourself and even thou that was unfortunate. you're alive, you're Healthy and you are young. don't let it go away. best wishes

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    2. Carmen, why would you say that? You don't know this man or his story.and as far as Isaac Burk...you can just google him and see the hundreds of stories about him...so he's no innocent man. You literally disgust me.

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  4. U had to be brave to type this. Hope everything goes well

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    1. Carmen shutt yo bitch ass up hoe!!! Yeah!!! You heard me right...Hoe!!

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  6. My best friend dated this guy a few years back when he lived in Atlanta. They never wore rubbers. My friend died of AIDS last year and swore on his death bed that this guy was the one who gave him the package

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  7. Share you story. Ignore these malicious and ignorant people. I support you.

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  8. U r never alone...God has u covered love. Lean on him for understanding. I'm glad u told ur family. My best friend/cousin never told us he was infected. He died way to soon. Cuz he never took his meds and basically gave up on life. Don't u do that. U live as long as u can. And live a happy life!

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  9. U r a strong person love. U keep your head up! Gods got u. So u will never b alone n this world! ;)

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  10. I read about this story earlier today and was completely disgusted. Not disgusted by your story, of course, but the news story of Isaac Don Burks. I commend you for the courage it must have taken to write about this. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I'm sure that sharing your story with the world will help others that have been through similar situations. I am thinking of you and your struggle and wish you a lot of luck. You have so much support!

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  11. http://www.wrdw.com/home/headlines/Atlanta_man_sought_for_Aiken_crime_110405774.html

    He's also wanted for fraud. BTW - I have a family member who has been HIV for 25 years and you still wouldn't know he is ill. Go on with your life & dreams... You never know what may happen down the line.

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  12. Baby, I Don't read at all, but I thank God for allowing me to run up on this. Little did you know, you touched my heart in a indescribable way & just to let you know your a tropper to me. I Love You & it is possbile to live a long and heathly life with HIV. But whenever you would like to talk I'm here BTW Im Devin & my Email is "minesdevin@gmail.com" & remember to stay strong because your story need to be told all over the world..

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  13. I hope you've found some peace by writing this post. I find writing to be therapeutic and allows me to get the pain out of me. I know a few people who have been living with HIV for more than 30 years. Just take your meds and find a reason to live. You have a lot to offer this world.

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  14. This is a crazy story this guy Isaac needs to rot in hell just because his life is runined doesnt mean he needs to ruin other peoples lives. Just keep you head up and take 1 day at a time you can go back to school get a boyfriend or a girlfriend and get married and have some kids just remember hiv is not a death sentence you can live a.completly normal life. I hope you start enjoying life.

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  15. You are a very brave person for posting your story...Regardless of you past, you still have a future. I am so sad to see that you posted that you are alive, but not living!! Please pray on this and let your voice be heard for motivation to many others!! We are all dealt difficult cards in our life, but it is our job to serve as living testimonies! Stay strong!

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  16. Im so sorry you are going thru this. I am at work fighting back tears. I know you feel alone but you are not. I for one would love to be a supportive backbone for you. I hope this guys is caught & given the death penalty. You have so much to live for. ppl with HIV can live pretty normal lives with the drugs that they have now. my name is Michelle secopsdiva@gmail.com If u ever just want to chat email me! Praying for you sweetie!

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  17. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I know it must have taken an incredible amount of strength to work up the courage to write this. Before anything, you are a child of God and he will get you through this.He gives the toughest soldiers the hardest battles. Though your story is unfortunate, sharing it is necessary, you don't know how many lives this will save. Don't let this man win, don't let this man defeat you, he does not deserve the gratification of you wanting to end your life because of him. Don't give him that power over you, pick yourself up and be everything he doesn't want you to be, and everything he can't be. Happy and Prosperous. He's a miserable coward and clearly wants everyone else to live in misery with him. Your story, your fight, your success, and you over coming this is much big than the man he could never be. Your life is important, you are important. Never forget that and thank you for being amazing enough to reach out to the world.

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  18. I feel you pain and I will pray for you and stay strong don't give up

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  19. Your story broke my heart. I cried while reading this post. I sincerely hope you find happiness and are able to cope with this one day. No one deserves what to go experience you've been through. I will pray for you every day. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story.

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  20. may God bless you and your family. I will be praying for you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  21. Joshua My heart goes out to you. No one should ever have to endure such a experience. This guys needs to be caught and NOW. It just makes me sick to my stomach to read what he did to you. Hopefully you will begin to realize that you are the chosen one for a reason. You have something to give. Knowledge. There are so many others young men and women just waiting their turn and don't even know it. Maybe your story; your voice will make a difference for just one other person. May God continue to bless you.

    Take your meds

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  22. wow i feel sad this was pure evil what this bastard has done. im in no way for homosexuality. but this has nothing to do with anyones sexual orientation. because the same could have been done to someone who is straight ( and it has been done). im sure this guy infected females too.
    i dont know how he contracted hiv himself. but to have that mentality that my life is over so now i want to infect others so they can be in the same boat as i, is disgusting, evil, vile. may everything bad happen to that piece of shit.as for you , despite people say you can live long they have meds to prolong your life etc , its still not the same as just not having hiv.ok so you take your meds and yes will probably live long, but like you said your living but not alive.

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  23. You are a brave young man to share your story. I had a friend die of AIDS about 10 years back. He didn't let anyone know he was sick, and we had to watch him slowly die. The person who infected him is still running around, new boyfriend (I pray to God he knows he's sleeping with the devil), seemingly healthy to this day. Live your life and your truth. God Bless.

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    1. isnt that horrible how life works twisted like that. the victim suffers and the predator is still alive enjoying life. its a shame

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  24. also though everyone is different maybe in time this will be easier for you to deal with. but dont take your life. and please PLease dont have the same mentality this douchebag has and want to spread this disease. as the saying goes misery loves company , dont let this become you. to disclose your hiv especially if you find someone who you wind up caring for is a hard thing to do , but if you care you will disclose that info and let the person decide if thats something they want to get involved with. Also nowadays they having these dating sites for people that have diseases. you may meet someone that you will like and guess what you dont have to feel reluctant or anything because this person has the same thing you have.take care and dont let this experience turn you into the vile piece of shit this issac bastard is

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  25. Your story did break my heart. My Prayers to you , but you are just as much at fault as he is. This story hit home more than you know, but I only blame myself. You being a virgin meant you should have demanded protection and checked more carefully that it was in place. Just live your life stop trying to kill yourself before GOD answers your prayers you have much to live for so LIVE. Stop placing blame and move forward. This guy will get whats coming to you, but dont make that your life mission cause you were guilty too. Be Blessed!

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  26. Honey, you can hate this man for the rest of your life because he f*cked you over OR you can pull your big-girl pants on and start to live again. HIV is NOT a death sentence. You take one pill a-day and will probably out live everyone else. Does it suck? Your damn right it does. But don't let the anger destroy you.

    Three years ago, after separating from my ex, I went out to celebrate. I'm a father. I'm established. I'm successful. But I ended up in a compromising position with a guy and didn't take the precautions I should have. I'll never forget when he "pulled out" and then said he didn't want to ruin my life like his because he had AIDS. I mean seriously, the f*cker couldn't have told me before hand? WTF??? But you know what, it wasn't all his fault. Sure he should have been honest with me. Sure he should have used a condom. There's a lot of things that should have happened. But so what! It happened. Now what? Well, I could wallow in self-pity because my life is destroyed, OR I could take care of myself and live. I have chosen to live. And I have the best life now, that I've ever.

    So, without trying to be harsh, I say get off the self-pity train and learn to live life in your new reality. You're young and have your entire life ahead of you. Let go of the selfish dip-shit!!!!

    And know this, it will get better! Three years later I can say that with absolute knowledge!

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  27. Hi, I am so sorry about what happened to you, stay strong and keep your head up. God does not put question marks where there should be periods.

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  28. The Bible says every sickness isn't unto death. Trust in the Lord with all of your heart & lean not to your own understanding. No one knows why this tragic thing happened in your life, but we do know that the purpose is always greater than the problem. Look up & live! You don't have to die. You can complete college & become a productive citizen. You have given this guy your life on a platter. Pray to God for faith, strength, courage ,& wisdom, than take everything back that you have given this guy such as your energy, time, thought & strength. But, most of all, take back your life!!! God bless & I will pray for you. Btw: Thanks for sharing your story.

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  29. Wow...your story is truthfull and needed ....it impacted me and im gonna pray your strength in GOD.......TAKE CARE BABY .....

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  30. Your honesty is absolutely admirable....it touched me in a way i want forget...an this story needed to be told and shared...i will lift u up in pray GOD BLESS U BABY

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  31. I want to thank you for getting the word out there... you could be saving many lives if they see your post. I am so sorry this has happened to you and pray you will be strong and fight this, it will get better

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  32. Joshua, please be strong! You are not alone in this. Please visit www.daviddrobertson.com David is a young man whose story is very similar to yours, contact him and he will help you. Also reach out to Rae Lewis- Thorton www.raelewisthornton.com these two people are more than willing to help.

    You may not understand this now, but what the devil meant for evil, GOD will turn it ALL around and work it for YOUR GOOD!! Speaking out was the first step on that path, someone has read this and you've saved their life!

    Also research Dr.Sebi www.drsebiproducts.com he may be able to help you..

    Praying for you! Love you with love of JESUS CHRIST!
    Stay STRONG!

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  33. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS I AM THANKFUL THAT YOU ARE SHARING YOUR STRORY SO THAT THE YOUNG PEOPLE WHO ARE HAVING UNPRTECTED SEX THEY WILL SEE THE RISK AND THAT ITS NEVER COOL TO PLAY WITH THERE LIFE!!!!!!:)

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  34. Joshua, please be strong, know that there are people you've never met praying for you. We've all FELL SHORT AND MADE MISTAKES, let NO PERSON make you feel any different!

    Please reach out to David D. Robertson www.daviddrobertson.com he is a young man whose experience is almost identical to yours, he will be more than willing to help you! Also, reach out to Rae Lewis-Thorton she too will be willing to assist you.

    Also, research Dr. Sebi www.drsebiproducts.com he might be able to help you..

    I do KNOW, WHAT THE DEVIL MEANT FOR EVIL, GOD CAN AND WILL TURN IT AROUND AND WORK IT FOR GOOD!!! You've already started on that path by sharing your story! Someone will read or has already read your story and you've saved their life!

    Please be strong, you are loved! Fervently Praying for you!

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  35. Stay strong a cure is on its way, a baby just made history this week in the news, u will not die, u will live

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  36. God bless you. Have faith in the lord. YOU ARE STILL HERE FOR A REASON. I'm praying for your comfort. Become an advocate, know that God loves you.

    http://youtu.be/tz8BgLSC24E

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  37. I'm so sorry for what happen to you and i hope the bastard who did to you gets what he deserve. Believe or not the world is not over for you. You have alot to live for so please dont give up in life because you're hiv positive sweetheart. I can't imagine the pain that you're going through but i can tell you that god are always on your side and will never leave. He will continue to carry you each and every minute and secound of your life without a dout. As far as this guy isaac burks he's going to get whipped by guilt from god and i hope he's prepared for whats comimg for him. I glad you shared your story with people and please don't stop here and continue to share your story with insperation

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  38. I'm sorry you have to go thru this, i can feel your pain i was told i had gotten 2 "presents" thankfully they were curable. But you can live thru this. Put your trust in your doctors.

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  39. Sorry to hear this I will pray for you don't give up on life

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  40. Dear Joshua

    Your voice is not silenced. It's powerful by the message your delivering. God has a plan for but you can't give up. Please take your meds, pray & go see a therapist to work through your issues of suicidal thoughts & depression. When you submitted your on the web you started the healing process. Continue & don't give up. Your making people think twice about their sexual behavior & getting tested more regularly. Your a beautiful & brave young man. If need a friend please email: krisigryl@gmail.com

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  41. There are many wonderful men living with HIV. And also other wonderful men living without it who are open to loving a man with it. I have a friend who goes around making presentations about HIV for a living and he still has to beat men off with a stick even though they know his positive status! There is hope. I know you are from a conservative background, but trust me there is still life in you!

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  42. And another note, good thing you forgot his number. No use going to jail while he gets the easy way out with a knife to the heart.

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  43. There are many wonderful men living with HIV. And also other wonderful men living without it who are open to loving a man with it. I have a friend who goes around making presentations about HIV for a living and he still has to beat men off with a stick even though they know his positive status! There is hope. I know you are from a conservative background, but trust me there is still life in you!

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  44. Joshua, Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. Though I am a heterosexual female, I was definitely touched by your story. Joshua, you must hold on with every breath. I know it is tough and I know you want to give up (I've been there numerous times), but there is a greater plan and purpose for you. Please live each day knowing that. And please know that you will not die alone. You will find someone that does not care about your status but cares about you as a person. Life can be cruel, and while this man attempted to take your life, he didn't succeed. You still have your life and there is still hope. Do not succumb to this and do not let it define you. You have a long life ahead of you and I really hope that you pull through. I really do.

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  45. Isaac Burk's Former Room MateMarch 4, 2013 at 8:29 PM

    This has been troubling me all day. I have seen the denials by Isaac and I am here to tell you that Isaac is lying! We use to live together in Atlanta and he has been hiv-positive for years. We both are positive and we would talk about our dates all the time. We even went to the same doctor and applied for government benefits together for men who are hiv positive. honestly, neither of us told new dates our status. We both believed that if you choose to put yourself at risk then thats on you. im not telling an ADULT to wear a condom. if he chooses not to oh well. and yes i say im negative sometime when i know im positive. everyone does it. wake up. isaac doesnt like to use condoms and neither do i. lets be real, who likes using condoms?

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    1. please kill yourself. the thing is it wouldve been nice if you and your bud isaac killed yourselves after finding out your status so you both didnt spread it. you're just miserable fcks that want company. so now if someone had sex with you and decided to use a condom then the condom broke and they still contracted from you , you would then say they werent forced to have sex? how about you forced something on them by not disclosing your got damn status. SArcasm here (lets be real , who likes using condoms). no motherfcker who likes hiv/aids or any other disease.you obviously dont thats why you want to place people in the same boat as you. kill yourself pls and im serious. then again you deserve a painful drawn out death where you beg to die .

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    2. Dear Room Mate,

      Whether you like to wear condoms or not is not the issue. The REAL issue is that you have an ethical, moral, and LEGAL obligation to tell the person you are about to have sex with that you are HIV positive. The, let them make an informed decision whether or not to proceed with having sex with you Dumb Ass.

      Dear Joshua,

      I believe in God and know that your illness and experience has not been in vain. Your story is one that is a POWERFUL testimony. Please take the advice and contact the persons referred to you by those on this website who feel your pain and want you to be better. YOUR life is worth a TREMENDOUS amount and your story is one in which other will be enlightened through your experience. I am lifting you UP in my prayers. You ARE loved more than you will EVER know my darling!

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    3. Man, please have a stadium of seats. Don't make excuses for Isaac. He DECEIVED this poor soul because Isaac led him to believe that they were having PROTECTED sex. What he did is criminal, and I hope that he burns in hell.

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    4. Bruh u real sick in the head...u have a duty to tell whoever u are going to lay yo sick ass down with, that u are positive. U have no respect for human life including your own! It's because of people like u this disease is killing people, u have no fear of God, and I would consider dangerous. Obviously u dumb ass hell we can all tell by ridiculous comment u posted. I think I even lowered my IQ by responding to your ratchet ass comment!I really hope u get yo life together one day, u just sad bruh and a pathetic ass looser. Your parents would be embarrassed to know that birthed and raised such an evil spawn! Maybe your next sexual encounter you'll choke on a condom, sick ass bastard!

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    5. Dear former roommate ��

      You are a sick human being ! I wish I knew your name so I could report YOU! Joshua asked Isaac to wear a condom! He lied, and took advantage of this young man! Just like you do everyday with your dates! And you have no remorse, just sick!

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    6. My God you are really sick!!! I pray for you because you are a very hurt person. You are right in the fact that people should use condoms no matter what but it is your responsibility to inform others that you are HIV positive, especially when they ask. I guess you did not use a condom and caught that virus so you want to hurt as many more people as possible?

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    7. You are sick and I will pray for you because you are VERY hurt so you looking to hurt others. You are more than right about the fact that people should PROTECT themselves no matter what but it is your duty to inform your partner of your status. I believe that you need help and I thank God that I do not know anyone like you and that I have never ran across anyone like you!!!! Since you were unaware of the status of the person that infected you, you believe that it is okay to pass the same treatment on to others?

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    8. you nasty dog that's fucked up!!

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    9. to the former room mate you are a monster...you have no morals..you need to be put under the jail...

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    10. This is the sickest thing I have read yet. To knowingly infect someone is crucially amazingly sick. I have family members that have been decieved by snakes as yourself. May God have mercy on your soul. You're living in hell already. But I pray you burn in hell for every soul you have infected.

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  46. Baby you are a child of God you are not defeated. Look at Magic Johnson he is still around and has a baby girl after hiv. Get yoUr education and start living for You!!!! You have to find your own purpose in life don't let him take that from you too.

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  47. Joshua, Keep your faith in God and he will see you through. You are extremely strong and brave for writing this. Continue to stay strong! Be specific with your prayers to God and believe that he will make a way for you to be okay!

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  48. that man is truly disgusting & he will definitely get what is coming to him. Thank you for sharing your story I was really touched. Stay strong just today the news stated they cured a baby of the virus- there is hope. HOLD ON

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  49. It ain't about what you like....its about what's right...and not to spread the deadly virus around....that's a person that shows no self control and a selfish cold hearted person...who is to blame....you are! If u don't want to wear a hat...that why aids is being spread now...and y'all need to be locked up to for attempted murder...Such a Selfish Act..Lord Jesus what is this world coming to...when people no the have a disease and don't care if they spread it...the Devil is truly busy...im praying for all of you people that let sex rule there life...it is the death of u..Sad..its not ok.

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  50. , most of the time I hardly ever read stories like this, because they r just so......ummm I'm at a loss of words, but thank God for u and your story! Your testimony will help to save the lives of many. Being a man that also is attracted to the same sex. We sometimes don't know how to control our sexual urges....there have been so many times that I've been high and drunk and decided to lay down and have sex or just fuk! Being on top I to have found times where I'm caught up in the moment and didn't use protection(with permission though) and we all know how unsafe it is and we still don't wrap it up. I could feel your tears while reading this article u wrote, because my eyes started to fill with tears just reading this. Your life is NOT OVER, u are helping save people right now, and we need u here. The courage u have most people could never measure up to it. Thank u again for sharing your story, I hope everyone who reads it realize just how precious life is and not to take it for granted any longer .. No matter how good he/she look stay protected (pray first) then wrapit up later. U can't know someone status about anything and no need to assume, know your status and where u stand. Please people go get tested then start to live a betterlife. I was just tested a month ago and my results were negative, and I made a promise that I would never have unprotected sex again! This article help to reinforce that, because it couldhave been any one of us here!

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  51. Honey let me first say that you are brave to tell this story. I can only imagine the betrayal you feel and have endured. There is still hope follow your dr. orders continue your therapy. Therapy works tremendously no matter your situation cause one thing about them they don't know you like that so it's less judgemental. I think you should go back to school eventually don't let that scum ruin the main thing you went to atl for.dont give him that satisfaction at all. Create a blog and keep us posted on how you doing. Take care and DONT give up

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  52. Hi, I was deeply saddened by hearing of your story, you are not alone in this and you are not the only one that this has happened to. I am HIV Linkage and Rentention Coordinator with ECU School of medicine. If you decide to come back to North Carolina I really believe that my team can help you. I am an ally for MSM, GBLT, and any other group that may feel left out. I offer free and confidential testing and can test in locations outside my clinic if need be.

    252-744-5109
    Or email me for resources at
    Hueye@ecu.edu

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  53. Carmen you and your nasty murdering brother should rot in hell!! Who does he think he is playing GOD with ppls lives

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  54. No mutha fucking ma'am, smh #Speechless

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  55. Im sorry Joshua i feel your hurt as i read your story...... just know that GOD will never leave nor forsake you..... i will be praying for you.

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  56. I feel so badly about your story and I cried for you. I'm paying for you And your family.

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  57. i know you (the author) might not read this, but your story made me cry, i worked for a law firm that would help out victims of HIV/AIDS and your story stands out. You have no idea how brave you are for actually writing this right now because right now as we speak there are hundreds of people doing the same thing that asshole did and the victims are clueless about it. If i can say please don't be depressed then i'd be ignorant. But please consider using your life for positivism in spreading HIV/AIDS awareness. It happens for a reason and right now you are impacting so many lives and if not. At least you made an impact in mines.

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  58. Did anyone notice how Isaac never said he wasn't hiv positive in his post denying that he is spreading aids? he just said he wouldn't do that but never said he wasnt positive. i fucked stephon a few times and he told me he was allergic to latex so we didnt use condoms. i fucked him so im not worried about catching anything. tops never catch aids.

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    1. IGNORANCE !!!! PLEASE GET TESTED !!!!

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    2. Your ignorance is very disturbing. how do you think bottom guys get Hiv in the first place? from sharing a dildo? how do you think woman get Hiv? please go get tested and take care of yourself. and don't you ever believe in somebody who is "Allergic" to latex. Best Wishes.

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    3. God bless us all.We all need to stay on bending knees

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    4. Don't be so sure about that, Sean.

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    5. Sean, saying Tops never get AIDS, is clearly stupid, cause if you do not use condoms you too can spread it or get it just the same as a bottom, Educate yourself bruh. You sound real stupid here man, I am a poz brutha who does not like condoms as well and usually mess with only other poz men, just my preference. I have been positive for over 21 yrs and very healthy and undetectable as well.

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  59. K as a poz guy myself i understand how he feels BUT he needs to take partial responsibility. He let this dude liquor him up (underage at that), let him give him a ride (he willingly abandoned his friends, went to this guys apt and engaged consenual anonymous sex. Not trying to justify this other guys actions just saying you to accept your own responsibility.

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  60. I was so touched by this story.It also opened my eyes because I'm in a relationship with someone whom I think maybe "down low".Joshua please know that something good could come out of this situation.Become an advocate and inform people to be aware and protect themselves.Take your meds and continue getting counseling.God will see you through this.Be blessed...

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  61. Sean you should educate yourself....if tops never catch aids, how can bottoms contract it? ijs. Have a seat. Joshua you have educated hundreads of people! Saved lives even. Don't allow this disease to get the best of you. Instead use it! You can live a looooooong....loooooooooong...healthy life! My prayers are with you and your family.

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  62. My heart goes out to you Joshua. Much love and support to you!

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  63. Its sad this happened to me twice with two different guys. I don't even do doggy style anymore its crazy that someone would do this without 100% knowing my status. If a person don't care about themselves they sure as hell wont give 2 cents about you. I thank God that iam HIV Negative. Keep your head up sweetie this is not the end for you this is a start of a new beginning this did not happen to you for no reason. Do let this be in vain. God wants to use u tremendously there are lives out here for you to HELP save Please please please don't give up the world needs you , if you can change just one persons life BY influencing then to make healthier descisions that's more than enough!!!!! And please DON'T EVER FORGET THAT I PRAY PEACE UPON YOUR LIFE AND IN YR HEART THAT WILL PASS ALL UNDERSTANDING!!!! XOXOXO LEE-LEE

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  64. THIS BRUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES,,YOU KNOW ,
    I CAN TELL BY THE WAY YOU WRITE ,YOU ARE A GOOD, SWEET AND AMAZING GUY ,, IT IS OBVIOUS HE DID IT ON PURPOSE , AND AM VERY SORRY HE DID THIS TO YOU, YOU BEST BELIEVE HE IS GOING TO HELL FOR DOING THIS TO PEOPLE, I DONT KNOW YOU, BUT I HAVE SOMEONE IN MY FAMILY VERY CLOSE TO ME WITH A VERY VERY SIMILAR STORY ,,MY RESPECT TO YOU , ,STAY STRONG! KEEP YOUR HEAD UP ,, song: YOU NEVER KNOW -BY :INMORTAL TECHNIQUE. LOVE SAMM

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  65. I admire the courage it took you to post your story. Especially in a forum where so many opinionated people can freely write whatever stupid ass thing on their minds. I would like to share with you the same courage you took to tell your story is the same courage you can use to fight for your life. Today people don’t die with the virus, they live with it. Every time you give into Satan and hurt yourself you are allowing Isaac to win. Isaac can’t take your joy because it came from the Lord. If God didn’t have plans for you don’t you think you would have succeeded after 3/4 attempts on your life. God has work for you to do surrounding this issue. Live your life telling your story to help other young men that are fighting the same battle as you. If you can get to at least one of them, God has used you to save a life. Go into the schools/colleges/clubs/churches and everywhere God leads you. Isaac has taken enough of your life, don’t give him the rest of it. God has work to do on Isaac as well. Right now focus on you and all you can do. You have two choices; you can die in shame or live use your experience to help yourself and others. You got one of the best support groups in the world, a loving family and parents that have an up-close and personal relationship with GOD. Above all else remember those who judge don’t matter, and does that matter don’t judge. May God keep you safe.
    You Big Sister in Christ.
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  66. To Isaac's roommate get a life yo and to his sister man go suck somethin. What type of bullshit is that to say. Dude did it purposely, just because your infected doesn't give you the right to do it to others; but much harm will come to him for infecting Josh. Also Josh go back to school and grad.yo, you still can become successful and meet someone. They have dating sites for ppl with disease such HIV/AIDS, herpes, and hepatitis. You only have the virus not the disease, and medication has evolved to where you can live a full life. I'm going to leave you with thought, although your HIV positive your world hasn't ended your success can still be accomplished. Before you attempt suicide again think about young children from ages 4-12 in many parts of Africa "getting captured and raped due to the virgin cleaning myth". When they catch HIV, their world is no more and they either end up being abandon and die before the reach 16.

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  67. Joshua:

    You're a brave young man who certainly didn't deserve to have some unscrupulous creature decide your future for you. I beg you to take your anger and turn it into strength and focus on living a healthy and long life. That is the best revenge against the wrong done to you.
    There is every reason that with the regular things that people do to stay healthy as well as the right medications you can lead a normal and full life.
    EVERYONE has something that is long term and chronic to contend with and most are manageable.
    You are a gift and you have a purpose for being here. Don't deprive the World your presence or your gifts. You have so much to discover about yourself and the world. You still have love to discover, receive and give.
    You are not alone and I hope you'll soon realize that. Don't feel as though you're the only person this has happened to nor will you be the last, sadly.
    The vast majority of Hiv+ people are honest about their statuses and practice safer sex.
    I beg you to seek out counseling, a support group,etc., that will help you find a way through this hard time and see the fullness of your future. YOU ARE WORTH HAVING HERE AND LOVED!

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  68. Joshua,

    Your story BROKE MY HEART! I am a heterosexual female, but I understand what it's like to be exploited as a virgin. Your heart breaks in a way that never repairs. Know that there are MANY people who LOVE YOU, and my heart sends you love, as well.

    Don't believe your status excludes you from love and acceptance. There are people (including HIV-) people who are understanding and willing to have a love relationship with an HIV+ person. FIGHT HARD, and take care of yourself. THERE IS HOPE. And, GOD LOVES YOU. You now have a special place in my heart, and I will never forget you.

    BE ENCOURAGED.

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  69. I'm sorry about what has happened to you...I read this story this morning at work and I have to say your story make my problems seem like nothing. You will do well in life, don't let this stop you...Stay strong

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  70. Reading this story, i wanted to kill this faggot my self. I'm gay, and wasn't a slut, but sexually active. I stopped all that one night stands bullshit cuz a dude i used to be cool with contacted HIV from his current bf. Honestly, i didn't even let a dude nut in me with a condom on. Fuck that, but the moral of the story is that men are always horny, therefore gay man are extra sexual. That said, don't be fooled by these good looking men. especially these black dudes, no shade, but they do shit like this cuz they don't give a Fuck about anybody (just look how rappers talk in their songs) anyways this is a story which isn't new, but never really discussed. Please expose this Fuck publicly! Honestly, i hope a crazy person read your story and kills his ass them damn selves! Anyways, have faith Joshua. And s/n when you go to these places (atl, dc, nyc, etc) assume every cute man had the virus, cuz they probably Fuck more often, this putting them at a higher risk! Smh I'm so heart broken right now!

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  71. I am tearing just reading that. I am praying and sending you hugs! So sorry that that happened to you but you were placed on this earth for a reason and your exprience will not go unnoticed now that you have posted your story. You will help so many other people. Good luck! xoxoxoxxooxo!

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  72. Oh no, my heart just breaks for you. This person gave you a life sentence with just one evil-intentioned act. But never fear, whether you believe in a GOD, or Allah or some nameless, faceless deity, somewhere this poor excuse for a human being will get his just reward.

    I am praying for you to find some peace. You are alive. You have people who love and care for you. You can still live a successful life and even find love. I know first hand, b/c I have friends who passed away from AIDS and many more who are LIVING with it. Its actually a choice. Choose Life. Its precious and you are too. God Bless you young man. Hopefully with your calling this person out and others also, he will be caught and stopped.

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  73. I can't even begin to imagine how this event has dramatically changed your life in every aspect. Your story is powerful and I admire you for having the strength to share. Do any difficult situation it's hard to focus on anything else but the negative, I hope you find the strengths in your situation: your family support, your ability to live everyday and your courage to tell your story. With the medical advancement in the treatment of HIV your life span has dramatically increased, never allow anyone to take your life away. While you're out here lifeless and depressed I am sure he's living his life to the fullest, do not allow him to change you. Your story sincerely touch me and I hope you find a purpose such as sharing you story for prevention of HIV spreading. Public speaking or support groups, you can still make a difference. Justice will eventually be sought, stay strong keep your faith and thank you again for sharing your story.

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  74. I live in Atlanta. I must say this story is touching. I hope that things get better. We all can die at any given moment. This is not a death curse. Just think about this ... babies die, mothers and fathers die ...even from simple things like just walking to the store. So hopefully you don't feel as if you a death walking. You should be proud of yourself for speaking out as you are now. You may only save ONE person ... but at least you have done your part. Keep your head up boo. I'm a lesbian and have many gay male friends ... but I too have many straight male friends as well ... and they too are just as deceiving. I hope I see that ninja walking around the city ... i'd throw gas on his as and light his ass up ... :)

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  75. keep your head up Joshua please find your strength to be strong am gonna keep you in my prayers have hope that 1 day u will get cured it will be gods will stay blessed

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  76. I have a best friend with HIV who had a similar incident. He has been strong and has been HIV positive for 2 years now. He was 21 when he caught it but he did not let that stop him. He finished school, he moved out of his mothers house, has a boyfriend, has a job. He did not let the disease defeat him. Take your meds, pray and try a little bit everyday to see past it. You are YOU. You are not just someone with HIV. You laugh, you love, you are still living. Dont quit living because of this disease. We all make mistakes. Its ok.

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  77. i just met this dude last week at a club splash. he is so phineeeeeee. we got high together & fuked down after the club. he is a freakkkk babeeee and aggressive. he sucked my toes, azzhole and elbows. he nutted in me and i nutted in him. i felt like i was in the matrix every time i would take a bump and sniff my poppers. he aint even mention a damn thing bout no condom and i aint either. i knew he was poz by all the lesions i saw on his body. i got em too. i blame the author you ole young fast slut fucking someone u just met. thats yo fault!

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    1. That was vivid, but true....I have been thru that same scenario..aint nothing like fucking high as a kite and hitting poppers lol. Stephawn love that T..

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  78. STEPHON MIZRAHI BEEN GIVING OUT THE KITTY FOR YEARS. YALL THINK JUST BECAUSE HE LOOK GOOD HE NEGATIVE AND YA WANNA RAW DOGG. YALL GONE LEARN THE HARD WAY LIKE MY JUDY DID WITH HIM

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  79. some of your comments are beyond me. how you can be so crule and heartless is amazing.

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  80. Dear Joshua,

    I'm soooo sorry for what happened to you!!!! I want to kill that bastard myself. But please live on. This is not the end hun this is just the begg. I read this story and cried so hard like a baby. Like someone else mentioned there are plenty of sites, and groups for HIV positive. If you take your medicine you will not die early. Please live on your story had probably affected so many in so many ways. I will keep you in my prayers.

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  81. I've never in my life posted a comment on a blog site. With that being said, it must have taken a tremendous story, such as this one, for me to do so.

    I first want to say that the ignorance and insensitivity in the comments is plentiful. Absolutely disgusting. I completely understand taking partial blame in situations. We should. However, this is not a case of going into a dark alley at 3am that is frequented by gangs and robbers. That would cause one to say, maybe you asked for it. However, this is a case of a blatant lie, malice, and omission of critical information that had and has the potential of killing someone and affects their entire life.

    With the manufacturing of condoms now, there has been such a growth in the sexual experience that you can buy condoms that makes it "feel" like you are wearing nothing. With that being said, there are often times when individuals do lie about putting one on and then taking it off. Isaac and anyone else has the OBLIGATION to disclose his "status" to anyone he partakes in sex with especially if it is unprotected. Moreover, you allow that person to decide. And, the answer isn't always no (surprise-surprise); as long as it is protected.

    I've been in a relationship with someone who is HIV positive for almost 5 years. I have not contracted the disease. I say that to tell you there is a person out there who will love you and be with you and protect you as their soul mate, regardless. There is beauty in all of us. We all deserve the right to be loved, and you will baby, you will and you are. I prayed after I read this for you and your strength. I would hope that anyone else with empathy on this site will have done the same before they judged. Be blessed. I don't know you, but as a Christian, I love you my friend. I just wish I knew you personally to reach out.

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  82. MISS RAHEEM AKA MISS RAHLO YOU DISGUST ME DEFENDING THIS MAN YO KNO DAMN WELL IS SICK. HE TOLD YOU HE WAS. YOU GOT BLOOD ON YA HANDS TRYNA DEFEND THIS COWARD BY MAKING THE CHILDREN THINK HE NEGATIVE. I BET HE WONT TAKE AN HIV TEST ON CAMERA AND PROVE HIS STATUS! YOU CAN CONTINUE TO SPREAD LIES ON FACEBOOK AND POSTING UNDER HIS ACCOUNT LIKE ITS HIM. WE ALL KNOW IT AINT HIM POSTING CUZ HE GOT WARRANTS IN SEVERAL STATES. YOU ARE AS SICK IN THE HEAD AS HE IS! THE SHADE IS HE DONE GOT MOST OF YOUR CHILDREN IN THE HOT BOYS CLICK CUZ HE DONE HAD THEM TOO! ALL YALL DO IS GET HIGH TOGETHER OK COKE AND METH AND HAVE EACH OTHER. NASTY ASSES CALL YALLSELF FAMILY AND FUCKIN EACH OTHER. THIS MAN NEED TO BE STOPPED. I AINT GOT NOT A DOUBT IN MY HEAD THIS STORY 100000% TRUE CUZ I KNOW OTHERS HE DONE GOT SICK. YOU A DAMN CRYSTAL METH ADDICT YOURSELF RAHEEM SO YOU CANT BE TRUSTED OR BELIEVED. YOUR ADDICTION IS HOW YOU GOT FIRED FROM THE RECORD LABEL YOU USED TO WORK AT AND LOST EVERYTHING

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    1. The truth DOES hurt....Put 'em on blast baby! Lol! Peace to you Josh. Stay strong and remain prayerful.

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  83. My heart aches for you. And I know that you are in dark dags right now but believe me there is life after. I have a similar story I found out I was hiv positive 3 years ago, my daughters father admitted to me that he tested positive 2 years prior and was afraid to tell me, meant to tell me before we got serious but could not bring himself to letting me know, when I got the news my head was spinning I could not believe what the doctor told me my eyes instantly swelled up with tears. It was more painful because the man I loved for over 8 years was the one who infected me! I did nothing I was faithful loyal and he was betraying our relationship and being reckless which caused me my health. I was very depressed and felt hopeless and scared. I did not want to be shunned or judged by my family or friends so I shut everyone out. Then that summer my city had an hiv/aids awareness festival and there was this young girl who spoke. She inspired me she was also depressed when she found out but she was happy and living. She said this does not define me, I still have life left and I chose to live! I hope those are words of encouragement for you sweetheart. And maybe one day you can stand and tell your story and inspire another.

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  84. This story was so beautifully written I wondered if it was fiction, you should be a novelist. The vivid descriptions of the sex and your emotions about the encounter to your diagnosis evoked so many feelings from titillation, to anger, to fear, to sadness. This tragic piece will save many lives, not only from horrible HIV and other diseases but from all types of situations that can arise from meeting new people. There are so many lessons to take away from this story, so you are saving lives by your painstakingly graphic and honest account of your trama with this psychopath. Please do not give up hope! HIV is manageable now. And you are so lucky to have insurance and parents who have the means to keep you happy. You are amazingly talented and intellectual you have a bright future! You could use this shitty situation and turn it into something amazing- no bullshit. Unfortunately we live in a world where depraved people exist, and good, hardworking folks like ourselves have to endure horrible things because of them. Don't let this sicko win by taking your own life! I commend you for sharing your story. I hope you find peace soon, and can continue to share your journey with the world.

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  85. rahlo-raheem-is-a-liarMarch 5, 2013 at 7:33 PM

    rahlo posting 7 page denials on facebook everyday is comedy at best. honey post some hiv test results if you really want to "clear" miss stephwan. lol. make his ass take an oraquick at-home test on camera without a pause in the footage or on ustream. ( u girls are crafty there needs to be a few people there to verify you haven't swabbed the gum of someone else and rigged the results ). i'm willing to bet everything miss stephawn wouldnt do it. not once did you say he was negative either. to the fools believing rahlo's lies on facebook, you have been warned. i would never trust an unemployed coke head who has her so called "sons"

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  86. That pathetic POS sad that some one would do that sick bastard eww he will be dealt w/ accordingly he has to answer to god

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  87. IF YOUZ STUPID NAIVE DUM FAGS DUM ENUFF TO TRUST A CRACK HEAD'S (RAHEEM RAHLO) FACEBOOK RANTS DEFENDING THIS MURDERER - STEPHAWN ISAAC BURKS MIZRAHI - BABE YOU GET WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU GET THE KITTY BOOM BOOM. WHERE THERE'S SMOKE THERE'S FIRE! BELIEVE IT

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  88. Is this forreal? oh shit, um, so if I got my gall bladder removed im sure they tested for hiv first right? i got my gall bladder out after i had sex with this guy. that was last year in june, and we had sex in may. I dont want to go get tested. fuk it, if I got it I dont want to know

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    1. Here we have another foolish child who had UNPROTECTED sex with this monster! he does not like using condoms. i know this from my personal experience with him.

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    2. Hoodrat--a positive result wouldn't show up that quickly. It's possible it can take somewhat up to 3 months or more to manifest. Whether you get tested again is up to you but PLEASE make an attempt to wrap it up and be safe. Acting like it may not exist is NOT the way. I don't know you but I've seen (your pic/gif/avatar) on other blog sites...I wish you well though. Strap/Wrap it up!!!

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  89. Omg STEPHAWN why??? Damn... (tears) u cnt hide forever && GOD see u boy!!! um sorry fa da ones he HURT... its ashame wen somebody decides fa u!!

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  90. BABY WHETHER THAT ARTICLE WAS A HOAX OR NOT DOESNT MATTER. THAT ARTICLE BROUGHT YOU OUT OF THE DARKNESS TO SHARE "YOUR" STORY! KEYWORD "YOUR STORY"!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE PROVIDED LIGHT FOR MANY THAT HAVE BEEN IN THE DARK. MANY THAT HAVE BEEN SCARED TO COME FORWARD! THIS BALLROOM SISSY GAVE HIV TO SOMEONE I KNOW! THAT ARTICLE AND YOUR STORY GAVE HIM THE COURAGE TO CONTACT POLICE ABOUT THIS MAN. THANK YOU! IF THERE ARE OTHERS YOU HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY TO PROTECT THOSE WHO CANT PROTECT THEMSELVES FROM SUCH EVIL!

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  91. I know you telling the truth, cause i know him myself, and i know how he get down...Actually everything in the initial article was true as well,he just wasnt charged for it. But thats life, there are many positive dudes having sex and not telling thier status, it is our own responsibility to make sure whoever we have sex with use a condom. We should look at it like every sex partner has hiv. It is not the other person responsibility it is our own. This was just a case of the ex hurt and trying to get back at him, but please know that he was definitely telling the truth.....

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  92. that hoax story was posted on March 1. i been following this story. joshua came froward on March 4. he even says in his story "Today I read the article about Isaac Burks and saw his picture. This is the same guy who told me his name was Stephawn." boom! more victims are coming forward from seeing or hearing about that news story. that stephawn isaac character is a proven liar and criminal. he's been to prison and has a rap sheet longer than i-95. Look at his rap sheet - https://docs.google.com/file/d/0B3ZTiDpurdKRQmRyUGRZWXdhbkE/edit?usp=sharing

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  93. I believe you josh. All the way from Cali. Our "kids" fly down frequently to NYC ATL dc , and come back as if nothing happened. From the mizrahi to revlons all y'all lil kids need to just Stop. I frequent the gay scene and I tell you, looks are tooooo deceiving. Mr. Burks has never yet denied he has the virus. He just says he wouldn't intentionally cause pain on someone. That is a Lie!! I don't feel bad for him or him trying to convince his family or friends that this is a hoax. Your family member IS gay. He does have HIv and he's spreading it on purpose. I'd hate to think he passed it to his fam on purpose since he doesn't care about anyone else. I beg of these TrADES out here frontin , give others a chance at life.

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  94. isaac-former-roommateMarch 6, 2013 at 10:52 PM

    I DONT GIVE AH DAYUM BOUT WHET YU THINK 'BOUT ME OR ISAAC!!!!!! ISAAC STILL LUKS GUD AND SO DO I. WE CAN HAVE ANY1 WE WANT INCLUDING YA MAN BITCH!!!! WHO IZ YU TO TELL US TO ADMIT OUR STATUS? ISAAC NEVER SAID HE WUZ NEGATIVE. WE DONT SAY NUFFIN CUZ WE NEVER ASKED. WE LUK SO GUD YOU AINT WORRIED BOUT NO HIV. WE HAVE AH DONT ASK DONT TELL POLICY. YU KNOW WHAT YU RISKING WHEN YU FUCK RAW. YU GET WHAT YU GET. WE BELIEVE IN SHARING THA GIFT THAT KEEPS ON GIVING...AND WE AINT THA ONLY ONES NEITHER. SO HA! WE AINT GOIN DOWN BY OURSELVES SUM OF YU BITCHEZ COMING WIT US

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